last day of work

Yes! today was my last day of work before freedom. I have to hurry up and get everything ready to leave on Sunday morning. we are leaving at 6, dh is so anal about getting to places overly early. all i know is that i'll be sleeping while he drives. i have a thousand things to do. my house is in a mess. work has kept me so busy that i have neglected my home. dh helps out sometimes but you know guys. i have to do laundry asap so i can pack. b&b here we come!

work

work has been so busy lately. its a good thing though. its kept me away from obsessing about babies for now. I cant wait I have one more week and then we go away for our relaxing romantic get away. i wish i could do something else sometimes. i work in a small company so they really depend on me for a lot of stuff and we recently lost one of my coworkers to motherhood. she just had a baby last year but after working for 6 months she decided she wanted to be a stay at home mom. how i wish i could do the same.

Vacation

I'm so excited! In 2 weeks dh and i are going away for a vacation. he surprised me with a nice week at a b&b not too far from home. I've never been to one but i hear its nice. when we were trying to decided what we would do for our week off he was so strong on saying we should save some money. now he said that i deserved a nice vacation because of everything that we've gone through. oh and i got to see my kitty over the weekend! i went to visit my mom and had a great time with them.

been a while

i'm such a bad blogger. i haven't updated in a long time.

i've been busy and sad. i don't know what to do about dh. he knows i time our sex life and that i try to get pregnant and he was upset with me. of course he had no answer when i asked why he doesn't use protection or pull out when we are together. he says its not conscious but that what i do is. he promised to think about us starting a family. he says he is still sad about our miscarriage and don't know if he can deal with another one and that this is why he tries to hold back.

at least its some progress.